I fell in love with a box of letters full of empty promises written, but not kept
Shattered dreams, plans never fulfilled
From the moment you walked through those gates toward your freedom
your singular goal was to break me
I remember you asked me once if I could imagine the pain of waiting, hoping, fearing, hurting
for an entire month
Well, I ask you this now……
Can you imagine the pain of sleepless nights
Waiting for the sound of your key fumbling in the lock
The fear of waking next to you, not knowing which version of you it was
The kick in the gut from your consistent character assassinations
The lies, the girls, the drugs, the humiliation……for a year & a half?
See-you never saw in you what I did, guess I was just looking too hard for something I wished was there,
because I sure never saw him, once you got your freedom back.
I fell in love with you like they did back in those poorly, overacted WWII movies
But the reality was 180 degrees different than that fantasy.
Nursing your wounds after bar brawls & gutter falls
Forgiving things unforgivable, ultimate betrayals, deal breakers….time & time again
Allowing you to steal my soul, like a succubus in the night
Let me get this straight….you wouldn’t suck my (!!^
While you sucked away my light
Immature & premature-a combination I could no longer fake enjoyment of
& while we’re on the subject of sex, what there was of it
Short, cold & passionless
No soft fingers caressing my skin into goosebumps
No taking the time to know every inch of each others bodies
Cold & heartless, that’s what I got
I guess it was easier to imagine I was one of the MANY you craved & indulged in.
I grew tired of being your receptacle
Shit, my vibrator cared more about pleasing me than you ever did.
One last question, before I let you go…
If I truly knew you better than anyone, including yourself, how come I could never figure you out?
Anyway, after all is said & done
As the sun sets on our “fairy-tale romance”
The bottom line is simple
I was merely in love with a box of letters